Lies….

What is it with me? Why did someone who I thought I knew would choose to deliberately lie to me about our relationship? Why would they not tell me that they wanted other things? Why not just straight talk with me – instead of what they did? Especially since this person knew that I was not going to take this lightly from someone else. Why not be true to me? I feel so used, so much like they may never have truly loved me… this sucks to feel this way! All I want to know is why they decided it would be better to let me live under the impression of a lie, than to tell me the truth themselves? Yes it still hurts to know that someone I thought I trusted to be a true person, would turn around and lie to me after all the stuff that I dealt with before. But I would have much rather known it before from them, then to be told by someone else to not contact that person again. Geesh, why be so afraid to tell me the truth that you use another person to deliver the news to me. Had you not realized that I could probably have handled the truth from you a whole lot better than to know that you had let me live under a false impression for so long?

I feel now that there may be no one I can trust again to be truthful to me…