Home is not where I wanted to be

Before I begin, I must acknowledge that this is a sort of complaining post… yeah I know, I should not complain or gripe, yet things happened today that I did not like. Ok with that said, I was going to go to my church this morning with a lady that lives in the neighborhood, have rode many times with them and have not had any problems before with her not showing up or calling to inform me that she is not going… until today. I was all ready to go, standing outside at time for her to come, but she never did, not sure why because no one called to tell me if something was wrong. It really left me on a lurch, and not in a good mood in ways. Yes, I did attend a church, my old one. It was ok, just not my church now and I was looking forward to being there today, as it was Worship service today and tonight was going to be Baptisms of some of the homeless guys that we minister to in Little Rock.

I do not like the fact that I have to rely on others to go to church, or that I have to ride the church bus sometimes… especially when the church bus pulls off and leaves me at church, even though service was not over, and I was not informed of the possibility of leaving before service was done. However, I digress there… sigh, I just wished I could have a way of reliable transportation, even a nice motor scooter, or motorcycle would be ok with me. I just am tired of always relying on others to get me places.

Of course, I know I have no one to blame for this situation except myself. I screwed up in not staying at jobs, saving enough money, watching my credit usage… Oh, how did I mess up…? Bad decisions haunt you when you really need the help that I do… God, I confess I messed up and need your help.